Tuesday, February 6, 2007

A Perfect Day


After I backstitched some of this, I really like it! The colors are really coming together. I guess this will be another one that I want to stitch for myself. The list is really getting long! lol
I'm sure some of you fellow stitchers out there in cyberland think all I do is sit and stitch. Well, it's almost the truth! A typical day for me is getting up whenever I wake up, taking a shower, and eating breakfast. Then I do a little housework, IF I feel like it. lol Then I stitch some and watch TV. Around noon, I fix some lunch. Then I return to my stitching and TV. Sometimes I take a nap in the afternoon. I take breaks all day to let the dogs go out or to play with them or brush them. Then I fix dinner, or call delivery, or get DD to run out and pick us up something. After washing dishes and spending time with DD, I go back to my stitching and TV. Now somedays are different. I substitute teach about 2 or 3 days a week. When I get home on those days, I have to take a nap. I don't get much stitching done on those days. And we definitely have take-out or delivery on those days. About once a week, I spend the day with my mom. We sit and talk all day and she usually takes me out to dinner. And I call her almost everyday and we talk for at least 2 hours! My life now is very different from the life I had before DS passed away. It was teaching ( and I really put my whole heart into teaching and loved it!), keeping my house as spotless as I could, running my kids all over the place, (they didn't have cars then), trying to be the perfect daughter - trying to be the perfect everything! And that's why I almost had a breakdown. I love my life now. It's exactly how I want it. And I have to stitch or I go crazy thinking about my son!! I miss him so much!! I guess I'm a little mushy today because I visited his grave yesterday. I don't go as often as I did at first. I don't really feel like he is there; I feel him with me all the time! I don't have any doubts that I was a good mother - I spent a lot of time with my kids and tried to make lots of happy memories for them! I was very close to my son and am to my daughter. So - I am very happy with my simple, peaceful life! I wish for all of you out there the kind of life you most want. And a little advice - don't try to be the perfect everything. It's not worth it in the long run. Make as many happy memories with your family as you can and remember to do things just for you. Have a happy stitching day!

5 comments:

The Silver Thistle said...

Beautiful sentiments and my heart aches for you.

As a mother myself, I can barely begin to imagine what you must have gone though.

Stitching is definitely theraputic and I'm glad you have it to occupy your time.

I think of you often and just want you to know that even online friends hold you dear.

{{hugs}}

Lucy said...

I, too, cannot imagine what you had gone through. I must agree with you....perfection is not what it is all about. It was my fiance who helped me to realize that as well as becoming the person I truly am and not what others wanted me to be.

Kendra said...

Like the others, I cannot even begin to imagine what it feels like to lose a child. My heart definitely goes out to you!

Sue said...

{{{{HUGS}}}} to you. I wish there was something to say to make you feel better. Thanks for your thoughts.

Carol said...

Hi Vicki, I came upon your blog from a link on another blog and have just spent the last hour reading your ENTIRE blog. My friend (who also happens to be a teacher)lost her 4 yo son 3 years ago. I was his babysitter for his first three years. We're planning to make a quilt from his clothes when she is ready. You have stitched some lovely pieces. One of them you mentioned not rememberig where the chart came from. It was in one of Leisure Arts magazines in the 90's (if not late 80's). I have it, always wanted to stitch it but it kept going to the bottom of the stash.
Happy Stitching from a fellow southern stitcher!